shattered

Your windowless eyes have shattered me ( again)

I Long for the release of the unrelenting memories

that continue to flicker and torment me.

I ache to let myself ~begin~ to forget you

yet, I am terrified to completely be ~without~ you

good or bad,

either way,

I still end up a l o n e.

just not as alone

as when

you gazed at me, with that empty stare

that spelled goodbye,

in so many sad ways.