eclipse of silence

sometimes in the silence,
in the silence,

of my restlessness,

in the silence

of my dreamlessness,
i remember glimpses

of who I used to be,

when i was with you,

in the dreamscape

of believing

that you were

so much bigger

and brighter

than you really were,

and
when you touched me,
and I quivered

and opened

my endless oceans to you,

and surrendered

always surrendered,

into your soprano

of lust and lies

and in the remembering
in the silences

of pain
and the wisdom

of

no longer loving you

I forgive myself ,

for ever falling
into your cruel

bewitching spells

because I wanted so badly

to believe.

in this silence

i find forgiveness.